Okay so as you could probably tell, I haven't been updating. Why?
Don't ask me. I haven't a clue.
And that 3kthnks is still in the making ><
Far out where's all my TIIIIIIIME??

So in the next three weeks it's Science, Math and Art.
After that I have two weeks of holidays, which I will be spending on:
> (irl, that is)
> (birthday present~)
> 3kthnks (the one that I have yet to STARTTTT)
> RoJ: colouring/psing
> "We're All Mad Here~" ft. Alice and Cheshire Cat of Wonderland (canvas: almost finished!)
> +moar!

So. I'm probably not going to be able to finish all of that.
But eh. I need to do SOME of them.. I hope.

I had another box of chocolates last week :3
I love being a pig >D

BRB FRUIT BINGE TIME!

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UPDATE! Science is on Wednesday (i.e. in two days) and I still have not yet started.
And RooftopsAndRaindrops TOTALLY STOLE A SURVEY ON PURPOSE SO SHE COULD DUPE ME AND GIVE ME REASONS TO PROCRASTINATE!
_{I'm lying, really. I'd find reasons to procrastinate even if she didn't. I love you Nat, very very much c:}

So here's the thingy~
( Swine Flu will have to wait. Sorry assignments >____< )
Think of ten people. Then, post some things about each person you couldn't say to them aloud. Make sure not to name the people! (Does this mean I can address something to like, my father and just call him "father" rather by his real name???? Sweeeeet~) If they can guess which number they are, you can tell them if you want.

1. For the first time in my life, I'm in love and it's not with you. I'm sorry it had to end, but I'm more sorry that you're the one who ended it.. Don't do anything rash. Don't be stupid because of me. Or you. Promise me. I suppose someday we will/might look back and laugh at our stupidity. Ah the youthful don't last, do they? We're all growing up... I hope you find that someone. I hope you can forgive me for this. I don't think I did anything wrong, but I seem to be ridiculed for what I did. I don't want to think that admitting your feelings to someone, and then change your mind about it is wrong. But perhaps it was too quick. No one knew it ended. Maybe that's why. Whatever it is, forgive me. Please. I don't want it to get in the way of us. Because even if it's not the same "us" as we originally wanted.. There is still an "us". There will always be an "us". But.. We're just friends.. Right?

2. I wish you could be yourself around other people too. I wish you can show others what a wonderful person you can be, like you've shown me. You are dazzling and clever and brilliant and no one could ever replace you. Why do you simplify that complicated, unique self image into something that everyone can categorize? Why do you put on black clothes and heavy makeup and wear chunky shoes only around other people? I sometimes do not understand you. I wish you would share with me what goes through your mind sometimes. But you are you. And I am me. We are friends, and no matter what stupid things you do, that will never change.

3. I'm really sorry. I don't even know what I did, and I hope you realize that you didn't let me down, or abandon me, or let me go or anything like that. You didn't do anything wrong, if you think you did. I wish we could spend more time together, sometimes. But then I think that maybe things would have turned out differently. I'm not sure I want to be anywhere else, other than where I stand, at the moment. I hope that whatever it is that's bothering you about me, or us, that it'll go away, and that you realize that I do love you. I love a lot of people, you must realize that. You should probably realize a lot of things.. I wish there were a simpler way to put it.. Or a more simple way to express this complex whatever it is.. But there isn't.
Forgive me. I didn't know you felt like that. Perhaps if I did a little earlier, it wouldn't be like this. You wouldn't feel like this. I'm sorry. I really am. I can't fix up your emotions with two small syllables contained in that word "sorry", but I can't think of anything else, either.
Actually, for most of last year my heart was occupied with you. But.. Things happened and realizations hit. I wish it weren't so. But it was. And it is. And I'm sorry.

4. When they said opposites attract, they weren't lying. Look at us. We're so completely different. And we're brilliant together. Friendships are meant to last. I will go out of my way and convince you to create any random social networking site if you don't already have one, and go out of my way to stay in touch with you after we graduate. I promise you, we will stay friends for as long as you allow. Because I've learned that a friendship can't last unless there is acknowledgment and support from both parties. I remember all the times we spent together last year, and all our conversations along with that other special friend, and together we've had amazing words exchanged. It makes me realize that I don't want to lose something like this. It's too hard to come by. There aren't many people around like you, who are willing to put up with my extreme insanity and (annoying and retarded) attitudes. I seriously love you to bits.

5. You're shallow and sometimes the things you do, the things you say and the things I know you think about are astonishing. You can be a terrible person, and I hope you realize what a horror you are at times. I know I shouldn't judge, I can be awful as well, but surely not to that degree. Not like you. Please stop. She's not that bad. She can be annoying, yes, but honestly, she's just human. You can't blame her for every fault and wrong doing. She's stupid. Just like me. Just like you.

6. Please explain your theories and figures. I don't understand. But maybe you're right. Maybe I can't understand. Maybe this isn't for me to know, to comprehend. I won't pretend to know what you're talking about. I won't pretend, because I'm sick and tired of us. Of your pretending and of myself going along with it. I'm sick of your ideas and your words, I'm sick of your smugness and your high level of self worth. It annoys me and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of you. Either explain yourself, or go away. I won't ask you to change for me, like you asked me to do for you. Because I know that I can't do that. I can't make you into someone you're not. Because even though I'm sick and tired of you, I know that there isn't a single person in the entire world that I could find to replace you. I'm sick, and I'm tired, and I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired with you, but I need you in my life. I can't live with you.

7. I'm in love and I'm sorry I didn't tell you any earlier. Please tell me I have your support. Because as long as I have your support, I can probably win over the rest of the family. If I don't.. I've always wanted to move out. Oh, and please realize I'm 1OO% absolutely serious like never before. We don't normally have serious talks, and in a way I'm happy about that, because it's somewhat a relief. But sometimes I regret it, because it's hard to bring up anything like this... Especially since it's the first time. I wish I could tell you how much I love you.

8. Stay in my life. I don't want to let you go. I don't want you to leave. Stay with me. Please stay with me. We're growing up too soon... I'm not ready to leave without you. Be with me. I need you to be with me. You're one of the only ones I've had for so long.. You're so important to me it hurts to think about a life without you. I need your presence to reassure me. I can't force you to leave with me, to travel with me in my heart, but I wish I had some way to translate this wanting into words. I need more friends like you, I really do. I wish I did, so that I wouldn't be so dependent upon a single person. You know that it bothers me to be dependent on people. You know that. You know so much about me. Years of bonding does that. Stay. Please stay.

9. I'm so scared to loose you. I know it will happen one day, although I hope not soon, and I hope not anytime later, either. If people could live forever... Things would be so much less complicated. No death, no aging, no loss. I dream of the day.
Sometimes I wish you weren't there. It's a shameful thought, and indeed I'm ashamed of myself. I don't deserve you. But I'm greedy and selfish and a horrible human being.. And I wish you could stay with me. To watch my life as it progresses. To provide "advice" which I will know to decode as "I want you to do so and so".
I'll miss you so much. And I know it's in it's early stages.. But old age will eventually take you. I wish I had ways to prevent it.

10. Holy flying pigs it's a CHICKEN!